Jenny Adams, Rooted Goddess
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JENNY ADAMS, 39
Four years ago, on Jan 18, 2019 I gave birth to my beautiful daughter Sadie who changed my life in a blink of an eye. Sadie was diagnosed with a rare brain disease that landed her on a palliative care program two weeks after she was born, she was given 2 years to live. I was absolutely heart broken, the life I had envisioned for my daughter, myself our family was gone. I was told she would never do much of anything in her short life, no ability to hear, see, sit, talk, eat, she would never smile, never say mom…… anything you imagine your kids doing. What was the point of all this. I was so angry. My mom said these words that changed everything, “Jenny she has a soul, a soul that can hear, see, talk, smile, and love, we will love on that part.” I got smiles and so many profound life changing moments I will never forget in her short 18 months here earth side.
One of those life changing moments was the gift of mediumship and channelling she opened a part of me that laid dormant for a lifetime. I fully stepped into this gift I received with open arms, I allowed her to guide me to as many courses, people, places, awakenings before the grief knocked me down 6 months following her passing. I was no longer able to hold space for those around me let alone myself and knew I needed to make immediate changes in my life.
I was grief stricken, unhealthy (my cortisol was so off the charts I developed thrush), codependent, anxiety ridden, stuck in fight or flight, dissociated, butt smoking, 10 coffees a day to keep going was my life. The only “control” I felt I had in my life was food, restricting and binging when things got too much. This was a cycle that I have had for I don’t even know how long. Do I struggle with this today?, Yes to some extent, but now I know the reasons behind them are to feel other discomfort within my body and not allowing emotions to be digested.
I didn’t leave my house for a year. I jumped the F in with my healing. MIND, BODY, SOUL. I ate only unprocessed, whole foods, I quit smoking, I quit drinking, I surrendered, and when I thought I was done I surrender even more. I took making myself a priority, number 1. I choose me, every single time. I meditated, I journaled, I moved my body, I prayed, I forgave, I rubbed my beautiful self with oils. I jumped so hard into the divine mother and I gave myself what I had been craving from others for years but always fell flat. I gave myself love, I gave myself compassion, I gave myself my own roots to build my life upon. I was an entirely new person, I was that caterpillar, that turned butterfly, the phoenix rising, lotus from the mud. I shed so much I was a whole new person I almost didn’t recognize.
“I have never imagined I could feel this empowered, this bold, this beautiful”
I joined a program for Women Entrepreneurs (Resilient Women in Business) after I opened my biz Rooted Goddess, where I guide and teach women like myself who have struggled for years with unworthiness, feelings of being unsupported plant the seeds for their next level of expansion through mind, body, soul practices.
There I met this amazingly courageous, vibrant, powerful woman named Anna Soriano. You cannot hear this girl and not feel empowered, inspired and to not play small. In our group one morning we were discussing our bodies and I was talking about how I have learned to love on all my curves, my lumps and bumps. I was doing this by lighting candle in my bathroom playing mediation music and having a sacred practice of rubbing my beautiful body with warm oils. This inspired Anna to reach out after our session, GIRL I NEED TO SHOOT YOU! LET’S DO IT!!!! I want you and all your curves. This beautiful human even gifted me this session, which included hair and makeup!!!! I did say yes immediately, obviously. I LOVE my body, I love how much we have gone through, she has taken every step with me. Was I really ready to show It to others?
Days leading up to the shoot I could feel myself and my old insecurities popping up, and on a facetime with Anna she caught some of them and walked me back of the ledge. All my flaws are what other people created; they are not true for me. (if you all don’t know Anna is not just a photographer she is an empowerment coach, channel, raising the vibes she’s the whole package). I showed up the day of our shoot with my bin of outfits some nerves, but filled with possibilities. I got my make up done, and my hair done too and they did the reveal! Who was this bad B&%ch in the mirror! I have never imagined I could feel this empowered, this bold, this beautiful. The way Anna pulled my higher self out that day has literally changed my life. I seen that version of myself, I knew she was there, I just didn’t know where to find her. If you thought I couldn’t love my body, myself, my life anymore well get yourself an Anna. She helped me plant the seeds for the next level of my expansion.
Much love,
Jenny – Rooted Goddess