Finally free
/I AM FINALLY FREE
I kept telling myself I deserved this, the abuse, the cheating, the insults, put downs……the bullying and harassment from my ex-husband and his mistress
I was born into trauma. Raised in an environment of abuse. Physical, psychological and emotional. At 15 I fell in love with a boy who I went on to marry and have 3 beautiful boys. After 23 years of being with this I had realized I didn't like the person I had become. I decided to seek help. During counseling was when I realized how I had been treated was not ok, that I deserved better. During this time, the man who I thought loved me, left me and my the kids. He was having an affair. Instead of hating him and this woman I chose forgiveness. I chose to forgive not only them, I forgave myself. Forgave myself for thinking that I was the one that caused this. I forgave myself for thinking I caused his infidelity and deserved what I got, forgave myself for not believing in me.
I am now moving forward. Raising 3 boys on my own, showing them kindness to others who are trying to be hurtful to others but more importantly to be kind to themselves. Teach them that happiness comes from within.
I am not sure what the future holds, I want to go back to school and go into a career helping others, for now I will continue to grow and learn. I will continue to love myself. I will come first, I will make me first.
During the beginning of my healing I met Anna Soriano. She convinced me that I was worth being photographed. The day of the shoot i showed up nervous and worried i wouldn't look good. Throughout the shoot Anna helped me realized how beautiful I am. She helped me realize I am confident and strong and that its all within me. It was such a fun shoot. After i saw the photos i was in awe, Anna is such a talented photographer however she is an amazing human being. I am so glad that I did the shoot.